I’ve created this space to share my witchy experiences, knowledge, and life journey with my friends and followers on their own paths.
A little about me
I’ve been a practicing witch since about 2013. I’ve always felt a bit strange, out of my element, and not quite right my whole life. Despite being able to mix and mingle and adapt to just about any situation, my twisted mix of light and dark views on life and refusal to filter out the dark things to be “lighter” so people wouldn’t be put off, would make social situations and maintaining long-term relationships a real struggle for me.
I’ve been able to “see” things in ways that others haven’t and it made me very “unwelcome” in a lot of spaces. Well, it was less the seeing, and more the speaking what I saw, that made people not want to be around me all the time. It didn’t seem like a magical thing to me growing up, just logical forward thinking, but it left me in a lot of “I told you so” spots as a child and young adult among people who had no respect for or time to listen to what an inexperienced youth had to say.
For years, I called it the Big Picture Curse. No one wants to hear that they should not do something they really want to do. No one wants to “feel” someone say “I told you so”, even if the words never leave your lips when they do something you advised against. Saying nothing at all isn’t any solace.
When I could see and feel the pain they would experience down the road, I would be torn up on the inside for days and weeks just over deciding if I should tell them what I saw or not. It was going to make them angry with me and they probably weren’t going to listen, but not telling them was going to allow them to be hurt a whole lot more by something else. I couldn’t live with that.
So, the advice came out, and my circle would grow and shrink back, grow and shrink back. The advice still comes out, and my circle still grows and shrinks back, but I’m different. It tears me up a lot less on the inside than it used to.
Getting to this point has taken years. A ton of self-work, a lot of people lost and let go that I cared very deeply about. Situations that have left me high and dry, sitting on the side of the road crying with no place to go.
It has also brought me some of the best accomplishments, to the most beautiful people and places I’ve ever seen, and a life I am happy living more often than I am not. That is what it is really all about for me. Spending more of my time ok with life than not ok with it.
The light and the darkness are always twisted together, like chocolate and vanilla swirl ice cream. I am a magic worker with both light and dark swirled together and I am proud and celebrate that. My goal here is to help you get to a point where you can celebrate it too. Have and spend more time ok with your life than not ok with it. This isn’t an easy, full of rainbows and positive thoughts journey. You’ll face demons, your own and other people’s. You’ll make decisions that don’t always go as you expect them to. You’ll also find ways to shift your mindsets and ways of thinking that seem to magically and profoundly change your life for the better. It is only by exploring and analyzing the darkness, seeing it for what it is, that we gain the power to change it.
You’ll hear me say this a lot throughout this blog. It really is the truth and the heart of the matter. If you can not just explore, but face, accept, and then change your own darkness, the ugly, twisted, bad, negative, and awful truth of you, you can do anything. It starts with knowing what you don’t know.
These are steps I take, practices I do, and the processing that I go through to become who I want to be, daily. It is my hope that in this, you find your path, have support along it, are empowered to make changes, and feel blessed and grateful along the way.
If you are comfortable with it, I encourage you to share a bit of your journey with me here. It takes courage to speak openly about your journey but the best way to find support and others like you is to share.
Welcome to my blog.
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